This pain to endure is getting worse by day, hurtful that sometime regret and frustration are just the right descriptions that I can only think of. Yesterday felt just like our first date and now here we are again denying our feelings of the very thing that we shared together for the past months. For sometime, I have tried to hide this feeling away from him and act as calm as I can so he wouldn’t feel shaken or uneasy of my impulsive paranoia. Nevertheless, I am only human made from bones, flesh and blood. These sincere laughter and distressing tears are just another way of human expressionism towards emotions. Patience is what brought us this far, it is what we as a being always been tested of though we know the limitation of it can cause such violence and destruction. I’m confused of my own decision on whether to submit to his significant other’s request or to hold on tight to my faith and belief. This devotion I have upon this bond is slowly fading away hence admitting to their desire. I’m unwilingly nodding...reluctantly giving up…The decision is already there, we both just have to gather all the strength we have and live on it. Suddenly, love alone is not enough for us to survive and I am just not the type of girl you fancy. Suddenly, our differences became crystal and everything reversed back to the time when a girl met a guy as total strangers, only this time the wall is strong enough to stand on its own.
